Happy Birthday Paulaaaaaaaa

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Los Angeles, June 19th 2009.


"Happy Birthday to you... Happy Birthday to you... Happy Birthday DEAR PAULA... Happy Birthday to you..."

In Brazil we would keep going with this song "Com quem será? Com quem será? Com quem será que a Paula vai casar? Vai depender... vai depender... vai depender se o ______ vai querer". KKK this is in Portuguese from Brazil "Who's gonna be... who's gonna be... who's gonna be the one that Paula will get marry to? It will depend, it will depend, it will depend on what _______ wants to do..." [hehe I'd put "cuddles" name over there]. I think that maybe your daddy knows how to sing it, Paulette :) It's cute ;)

Hey angel, Thank you for reading this letter I wrote you. It's a "little" long, but I'm celebrating a multitask-amazing-adorable person who I love, so how could this be a short one? LOL!

Today is a very special day because it's the one that some years ago God decided to give you LIFE. It's a day that He possibly thought "I'll give the world a very sweet person. She will be beloved everywhere, by people from all continents. She will have the most beautiful smile ever. She will be very famous, but she will keep being humble as a child. People will get confused if she's a woman or a girl. She will have many talents, many skills, and many challenges. She will be a winner! Her name will be Paula Julie Abdul" - (baby crying)--- PAULA WAS BORN :)))

Paulinha (you know I love to call you Paulinha...), when I read that "people who belong to God are the ones who are humble as a child", I thought about my sister in Brazil and YOU. My sister talks like an angel... she's very sweet, and has everything she needs to live good, but she NEVER changed her humble way. You Paula, you're like my sister, and I told you once that I talk to you as if you were my sister. But that is also because you make people feel very close to you, you're a simple person who enjoys simple things in life. There are billions of people in this world, and I'm thankful that I see one that is so rare, so special: YOU.

I see how Paula Julie Abdul really is. She is this person who hugs people WITH LOVE (it's not just a hug), she truly cares about them, and talks gently to everyone. She has this contagious joy :) She can be angry and can get hurt with injustice or with rude people. Even when she's angry, she still seems like a child being angry because mom and dad are doing something she doesn't like, so she cries hurt because she could never be evil to anyone :) Paula is a very fragile person. She is very sensitive. She doesn't like to correct people's really bad mistakes because she was born to support and love them, not to show them that they're wrong. When she must correct people, or criticize someone, she feels bad... she doesn't like to do that! She has such a beautiful soul... Paula knows she's a simple person inside of a celebrity body. And she knows that as a celebrity, she can't be as simple as she wants to be anymore... But people who LOVE her understand that. I saw Paula many times opening the window of her car to talk to every single person, every single fan, every single paparazzi, even when she was exausted... even after a busy day she would give full attention to everyone. She gives her best, always. Once I saw Paula upset when she was making money, and that was because she sold out all her jelwery on tv, and actually she wanted to have some extra jewelry to give people as a present! Beautiful heart :) I saw Paula worried about a little girl who felt down on the streets and she came to help. I saw Paula cleaning the hair of a guy who broke cement blocks on his head on a tv show, and she was the first one to care about him and asked him "are you ok?". I also saw her sad because she believed in people she shouldn't, and they cheated on her, but even though she kept believing in people as a child talks to a stranger on the streets. She's an optimist person :) I saw Paula with a shy smile when "cuddles" blinked at her. It's like a little girl being flirted. I saw her teasing him too, and there was nothing childish about that HEHE. I saw Paula being the funniest person ever, making the best jokes, saying clever comments about any kind of subject. She can be innocent sometimes, but she's always smart. She can make mistakes like anyone else, but people can notice HER mistakes more than other people's mistakes because she's SO honest that she can't hide anything when she's wrong. She's a true person. I saw Paula crying alone when she just needed a hug. I saw her full of people around when she needed the silence. I saw her having the best moments with people she loves, and with people who love her. I saw some people hurting her, but I saw her being strong :) I saw people hugging her with love. I saw her in physical pain, but still working hard. I saw her keeping her body in great shape, and doing her best to keep healthy. She is gorgeous :) I saw Paula working hard on her songs, on other people's songs, on her performances, on other people's performances. She's a person who shares her talent. She's a fantastic dancer/singer/choreographer. I saw her proud of her jewelry designs, but never snobbish. I saw Paula extremely happy because someone realized a dream. She's passionate and a very emotional person too. I saw Paula helping people and animals through charity. She's precious to them and to God. I saw her calling every people by their names. She remembers their names and faces. I saw her answering my messages and making me emotional, happy, touched :) I saw her replying messages with so much love. I saw people pressuring her to write them back, and she doesn't get upset as I do when they say that...so she just writes them back :) I saw her being very professional, and very friendly to people at work, and treating Daniel like he deserves to be treated (with love). I saw she is a family-oriented person who loves to be with her parents. I saw her talking about her sister with so much proud and love :) I saw Paula changing Simon to a better person, and a smiley guy. I used to hate him in Season 1, now I can't stop seeing them both, it's like they're only one :) She makes the difference in people's lives. I saw that Paula is not THAT experienced with love subject, but she's the best one being charming. I saw her very afraid to get hurt when in love. She deserves a man who shows her how much he loves her, and treats her like a princess :) [so you guy there, wake up and treat her with gentleness!]. I saw Paula in love. She IS pure love. I saw all that, and I STILL SEE.

I see you, sweetheart. I see more than that, but you don't wanna read a Novel, do you? kkk Paulinha, I always pray for you, care about you, worry about you, cheer up for you. Can you imagine how much God sees, Paula? A lot more :) As I told you once, He must love you soooooo much... you, this beautiful young lady who has this huge heart...

You made such a difference in my life, you have no idea. Paula, I had a really bad moment in Los Angeles. A guy made me stop smiling for almost a year, I felt in love with a man who pretended he liked me. When I found out the truth, my whole world fell apart. I found myself completely alone without my family to support me here (they're all in Brazil), I found myself in the middle of people who never gave me a hug when I needed one so badly. I got myself in noisy places when I needed my quiet time. I cried more than ever, I was very hurt, and I could not believe in people anymore. But I kept seeing you, and looking at this bright smile and your goodness. Finally I woke up one day and thought "yes, look at Paula... there are still some very good and sweet people in the world". You've always been my inspiration, but at that moment, when I remembered your face, you helped me to raise myself again. You helped me to believe in people again. I did move on, and today I'm back to my old self, smiling, happy, full of friends, and ready to love a man again. Thank you for being my inspiration.
Thank you, Paula.

I love you, I'm sure you feel that... I know you read my messages, and I know you read everyone's messages. That's just the way you are, a fantastic human-being :) It's funny that now when I go online and that I can communicate with you, you became part of my daily "good mornings", and "night nights", and more than that cause even when I can't write you during the day, or when I don't see you updating your messages, I know you're very busy, or sad, or bored, or doing something REALLY good that is not of our business LOL My day is not complete anymore if I don't say at least 'hello' or 'see ya later', or "goodnight" to you. I know you can't answer everyone and everytime, but I know you read everything, and that means a lot to me. I can imagine your beautiful face thinking like "I wanna answer everyone, I wanna answer everyone!", but some people understand that you can't. You have thousands of lovers :) You are unique, Paula. You deserve the best things ever, you are where you deserve to be. For all your hard work, for all your kindness. You are this sweet woman-girl or girl-woman. And even if I'm not very close, I know that I'll give you a huge hug when I meet you. And more... even if I never have the chance to give you a hug cause I'm not the kind of person who searches for you in every single corner of this city LOL, I'll still love you in the very same way... always.
"Pawrla" hehe Paulinha do meu coração (Paulinha who belongs to my heart), I'm very happy for your huge success, I've always loved to see you dancing, I love your songs (especially 'Rush Rush' live in Japan, 'Cold Hearted Snake' videoclip and 'Vibeology' IN MY CAR AND CELL PHONE lol), I LOVE your perfomances everywhere, and all you do on tv, from American Idol to other appearences in tv shows, series, etc. I love reading your blog, I laugh a lot with your comments about your cute chihuahuas :) I'm very proud of you and of your new projects. Your new single "I'm Just Here For The Music" is delicious, "FANTASTIQUE"! I'm very happy to write you a letter in a such special day. I really want you to have a blessed day. The day you were born :) Celebrate, go have fun, and as I always say to you, never ever leave LOVE behind -I just feel sorry it's L.A. and OMG, I know how hard it it is to date a nice serious guy here! LOL But you're a beautiful woman, very talented, very intelligent, and you deserve a man who gives you love :) But remember angel... men are not perfect HAHAHA So... open your heart, and LOVE your guy too. Seriously. Take risks, even if it could hurt later. Try, you gotta try ;) That's the best advice I can give you for now, and "That's What Friends Are For" (Today, in a very simple way, I'm singing this for you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RTNsLT0JCk ). I'm a fan, and I'm your friend too, in my heart ;) I wanna see you completely happy in everything, and FOREVER. You're forever my girl, and remember that I am "Forever Your Girl" too :) I love you, Paula. I'm saying that with all my heart. God bless all the days of your life. Smile like you always do :)))

A HUGE HUUUUUUUUGE hug, beijos (kisses). Eu te amo muito(I love you very much)

Sincerely,

Malu [@Tonange]